2022-12-15
A year has passed. And I am visiting the Christmas Fairs again. Another break lasted many months, an empty studio, abandoned projects… Well, my plans are plans, and then other pressing matters intervened. My spine completely rebelled and taught me a great lesson. I will honestly admit that the amount of physical pain exceeded my strength, I had to let go. Work stopped, projects suspended, enthusiasm dimmed.
The big question was: Will I be able to continue my passion? It is one of those difficult moments in life when the certainty that you have found your own path in life is suddenly shaken and undermined by greater forces.
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In addition, fate played a trick on me even more… the love of my life that I had within reach of my hand, suddenly transformed into a huge, cruel monster and breathed sulfurous breath. Phew, I had to clean up the ruins, get up, shake off the ashes, resurrect the glimmer of hope in my eye and heart. These earthly experiences are difficult, oh so difficult.
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And so the things I was sure of fell apart like an elaborate and beautiful building made of sand.
Now the spine is calling out, gently hinting that this is not over yet. And the monster? It flies in the sky from time to time, roaring somewhere in the distance and causing a slight shiver.
I want to say that… Everything will be fine, I am stronger and wiser after these experiences. I have done a lot of mental work. I have healed my soul and body. And what next? We will see. I suppose it is time for more changes.
